Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Commitment . . . Not Such A Bad Thing.

Commitment to anything is hard work. I have to admit that I haven't really commited 100 % of my heart to anything in the past two years except for completing my 2 year contract out here in Saipan. After Saipan I don't even really know where I'm going or what I want to do. Making plans is tiresome for me and frankly I'm tired of being disappointed.

Today was a milestone for me. Coach Mike continues to push me to swim faster in the pool. Though he sometimes yells at me for "pausing" at the other side of the pool . . . it makes me want to work harder. He finally told me that I have to stop surviving and start challenging myself. So he made me commit to my first 400 meters without stopping.

So this morning I swam my first 400 meters without stopping! Woo hoo! That may not sound like a big deal to you but for me . . . its huge! I remember swimming with EJ for the first time about three months ago and not being able to complete even one lap. I was pathetic. I kept thinking how am I ever going to ever get up to par. But after finishing my 400 meters this morning I felt so happy. I know, its werid to be so happy over something so small. But I haven't been this happy in a long time. My self- doubt is slowing going away and I am starting to remember the sweet benefits of commitment.

9 comments:

Rosana said...

KEEP IT UP BEV!!!! I'm praying for you!!

Lewie Tenorio said...

Way to go, Bev! ...and the great thing about it, is that if you do it once, you can do it again. You'll be doing 1500 meters in no time. Keep pushing your limits.

Mai said...

Good job! You're doing so great! Keep challenging yourself and you'll be amazed where you'll end up!

Kimiko said...

I do understand how you were happy!!

Ganbatte!! (Keep it up!) (^_^)

John Dax said...

Commitment = bad
Footloose+fancy free = good

Sean said...

You are so awesome! Congratulations! I love how you always find ways to challenge yourself. You're such an inspiration!

Gloria Pierson said...

Bravo Bev!!! Fantastic job! You have completed 400 now you can set a new goal! Great job! I really admired you for setting goals reaching your milestone!!!! Congratulations! Enjoy keeping up with your blog!

Maggie said...

Nice job Bev! Sounds like you've got quite a tough coach there.

Deece said...

Congratulations!

Don't try to compare your accomplishment to anything and downplay its worth. If it's big to you - it's big and be happy. Girl, I can't even float! 400 meters seems like an impossibility to me. :)