Friday, October 19, 2007


Small things have been upsetting me. What's worst is that I act like I am not upset and annoyed but I really am! Why do I feel the need to bite my tongue and tolerate the madness I go through? Maybe i'm just chicken or maybe I'm too concerned about what people may think of me if I complain. I seriously am not much of a complainer. Anyway, I am fed up and frustrated.

Ok, so this is the real me. Lots of things upset me: other peoples behavior, my behavior, time pressures, work. Living in a different country there is the added pressure of cultural misunderstandings, adjustment, and little familial support. I realize that I can't expect things to be the same as they are in the states such as customer service, work ethic . . . blah blah blah

I realize that certain situations that upset you can give you an opportunity to learn more about yourself and others. Its just frustrating when things aren't the way you are use to. For instance, Americans drive on the right side of the road and the British drive on the left side of the road. Neither is right or wrong, it's just unfamiliar and a different way of life. I think it just comes down to adjustment. Something that I am having a hard time with out here. (sigh) TGIF Ahhh, I love Saipan's sunsets.


Sean said...

Hang in, Bev.

Anonymous said...

Hugs Bev! There is nothing wrong with saying what on your mind! It's healthy! Praying for you xoxoxo

Anonymous said...

I think you said it very well, Bev. One of the most challenging things for me was to balance my expectations (all the things I was taught or expected) with the realities of life on a tiny island. While we tell ourselves that we just need to be more understanding and accepting (which btw is absolutely essential), there is also a component of character and ethics that (in my opinion) needs to be put into practice wherever people live. Saipan has its strengths and growth areas as does Texas and anywhere else in the world.

I guess it comes down to accepting and appreciating cultural diversity while hanging on to our core values. All this to say, you are a human being and what you're currently experiencing is NORMAL. :)

Btw, should I charge your credit card for this "counseling session"? Hahaha. Miss ya Bev!!

Anonymous said...

It's called "Island Fever." You have two choices join in the insanity or leave the island. Just keep saying "This too shall pass."

As for your customer service complaint... I actually had better customer service when I lived in Saipan than where I'm living now. That's one area of life that's going down the tubes everywhere.

Remember there is something better "Beyond the Sunset."

Bev said...

Sean: Thanks. The youth and Real Christian Theater is keeping me going.

Rosana Banana: Wish you were still here. I'm missing your curry and Dal!

Steve: My charge card is maxed out already! haha Miss you and Miwa too.

Anonymous: Who are you?! thanks for the pep talk =)

John Dax said...

I trully believe that sometimes in your life, you've got to be able to say, "What the fuck?!!" and then move on from there. Words of wisdom, my friend.

Bev said...


Anonymous said...

Ohhh.... :-(
There's no need for foul language -- something I learned from our monday night bible study group...Why not just scratch the language and let GOD do the change. We certainly can't do it on our own. The way I handle frustrating things?...I pause, take a deep breath and ask God for patience. I'm praying for you, dear!!!