Sunday, August 12, 2007

Thirsty

Caught a glimpse of His splendor this past weekend. It was like a flash of lighting reflecting off the sky while over looking the sunset at Wing Beach. It was the most beautiful thing I’ve seen.

Though I have a busy schedule and lots of friends here in Saipan there are still many times I feel alone. It isn't the type of loneliness that just anything or anyone can fill. Its deeper than that. They say feeling loneliness is a part of the mission life. The strangest thing is that the times that I feel alone are the times I feel closest to God. Perhaps its because I am clinging onto Him for dear life. He is in complete control.

It will be my one-year anniversary of living in Saipan this September. I’m already looking back and re-evaluating if I accomplished all that I set out for here in Saipan. I feel that I have grown up a lot over the past year. Still my spiritual walk isn’t quite at the level I’d like it to be at. I’m still longing to deepen my relationship with Him.

We started a small bible study group Friday nights and prayer sessions on Wednesday nights. It was exactly what I needed. It’s taking us back to the basics about what Seventh-day Adventists believe and understanding who God really is. Spending time with the new student teachers is helping me refocus on what is important. No matter what I try to keep filling up my life with to be happy . . . nothing can quite quench or satisfy my thirst for something more than what this world has to offer like God can.

5 comments:

Mai said...

I can totally relate. I've been feeling like that lately as well. It's nice to know I'm not the only one out there struggling along!

Marites said...

Bev. remember whenever you need a friend, i'm always here for you. Love you sis. Take care always

Anonymous said...

Yah, you really aren't roughing it. I noticed that your bookcase is empty. I have lots of books to donate if you would like some. I'm trying to get rid of the books on our bookshelves. Eeek! Manang J

KelliOnSaipan said...

I can relate to "thirsty". Thanks for sharing.

Sean said...

Bev, you really are an amazing person. I'm so glad you're here!