Tuesday, September 11, 2007

My One-Year Anniversary In Saipan

Break ups can actually be good for you. Once you get over the initial nausea and heartache, breakups actually force you to reevaluate everything in your life. Some people react by cutting their hair, joining a gym to get back in shape, changing the focus of their career, or even relocating to a new area. I think its pretty much safe to say that I ended up doing all of that.

I can’t believe that I’ve been out here for a year. Its all kind of a blur to me since my first year flew by so fast. I remember arriving at 1:20 in the morning a year ago not knowing who was picking me up and where I was going to stay. I was kind of scared but excited at the same time.

Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I’d ever end up in Saipan. I was living the Orange County lifestyle before I moved out here. My dream apartment was only ten minutes from Laguna Beach. I had the perfect job at a Periodontal and Implant Dental office. I had my family and friends close by. Somehow the busyness of life in Southern California comforted me. But making good money, having all the material things, and job security didn’t satisfy me. My heart was longing for something more.

When I made the decision to leave the states to do dental mission work, I applied at different SDA Dental Clinics all over the world like in Thailand, Japan, Philippines, and Guam. Saipan wasn’t even a thought. In fact, I never really heard about Saipan until my Dental Hygiene instructor brought up a job opening to me. The first person I heard back from was Dr. Ken Pierson. When Dr. Ken Pierson initially offered me the job at the Saipan SDA Clinic it was for a two-year contract. I declined and said I would only come out for a year. I didn’t think I could last being away from my family for that long. I wasn’t willing to give up more than a year of my life.

Funny how much you grow and change when you are away from everything that is comfortable and familiar to you. In the past year I have realized what a blessing it is in following God’s path instead of forcing my own path. His plans were far better than anything I could ever imagine. When I look back I realize that God really opened doors for me to be here. He’s so real in my life. I think He just knew that this was what I needed to bring me closer to Him.

I’ve decided I need a theme for this year. Matthew 14:22-32 was the bible verse that helped me make the decision to leave everything behind and to follow God. It’s the verse when Jesus met his disciples that were in a boat on a lake during a storm. Peter walked onto the water to meet Jesus. The story tells of the strengths and weakness of Peter’s faith. His faith and trust in Jesus allowed him to walk on water! I know that Peter eventually began to sink when he took his eyes off of Jesus but can you imagine really walking on water? I believe that having faith alone is not enough. That exercising your faith is what really counts. That’s the kind of faith I am striving for this year.

So even though I could have gone back after this year I decided to stay. Honestly I don't know why God wants me to stay another year. I just know in my heart that He wants me here. I Just need to stop trying to understand things and just trust Him no matter what. Never again would I compromise Him for anybody or anything.

So here I go with another year in Saipan. I’m so happy to be here.

10 comments:

Melissa said...

Bev, thanks so much for sharing your heart. I'm in the same place as you are right now... following God's will but not being quite sure where He's taking me. One thing for sure is, it's never boring! And at least we know that He is in control! I'm glad you decided to stay another year... we need to go get a coffee soon!

The Saipan Blogger アンジェロ・ビラゴメズ said...

Give up a year of your life? Funny how we view things sometimes, as if stepping out of the rat race is giving up.

I'm glad you pirated my Christmas tree pictures.

Sean said...

Beautiful post, Bev.

The journey you've been on in is simply incredible. Thanks for sharing it with us.

CNMI Blogger said...

Bev,
You are meant to be here. Enjoy life here. You'll know when it's really time to move on, though I hope that won't be for a long time.

I'm with Melissa, some girls time out for some coffee and chat would be nice.

Brit's Blog said...

Happy Anniversary Bev!
I'm proud of you and the journey you've decided to take.

keep challenging your spiritual life...God will fill your path with adventures, lasting friendships, and meaning :)

You are an inspiration!

Marianas Eye said...

It's nice to have you here, Bev.

David

Lewie Tenorio said...

Got me thinking of Dr. Seuss'
OH!
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!

Always a great read.

That's the spirit!

Whimsy Peddler said...

It's amazing how we can find comfort in not knowing when we're with God. I'm glad you're still here...I wouldn't have met you if you weren't.

Bev said...

Melissa: Looking forward to our coffee date!

Angelo: I don't think we would of ever met if I hadn't pirated your pics! Thanks for being a good sport =P

Sean: Thanks for your encouragement.

Cinta: Thanks for always making me feel welcome.

Brit: I miss you! Come back and visit us soon!

Dr. Khorram: Looking forward to seeing your gory eye surgeries!

Lewie: thats one of my favorite children's book!

Judith: Who would have ever known that our paths would cross. So happy that God brought you to us.

jeff said...

and so are we.